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Being Brave and Facing the Dreaded Weigh In

Being Brave and Facing the Dreaded Weigh In

Today marked two weeks since my last weigh in, when I walked into the bathroom today the scale seemed to be all I could focus on. I will admit I was hesitant at first to step on the scale, knowing that my hard work may or may not be showing on the scale yet, that fear did not stop me, I did step onto that scale! I closed my eyes while the numbers moved a bit and settled into my actual weight being shown on the display, when I opened my eyes and looked down the number 164 was what was shining back up at me. Okay, I can handle that! That was a 3 lb weight loss over the course of 2 weeks (I was 167 last weigh in). When I started back up with my weight loss 3 weeks ago I weighed in at 169.4, so in 3 weeks time I have lost 5.4 lbs, not too bad.

I have to admit when I weigh in now no matter what the number is, I am still not quite 100% happy with myself. Knowing that I was down to 144 at the beginning of 2012 and knowing I had less than 20 lbs left to lose before I hit my goal weight and then I started regaining the weight makes it hard to completely be happy with the numbers this time around.

Don’t get me wrong, I am proud of myself, trust me I am proud of my hard work and of the choices I have been making in order to not only to lose the weight but also to get back to a fitness level I am also proud of. But I just hate that I was so far along in my journey and then I just slipped back into old habits (given a lot of things came up during that time that I have blogged about previously – I battled through a horrible bout of depression, we had some major life altering changes occur in our life, including bringing home an infant unexpectedly becoming parents over night – but I always call things like that “excuses” for weight gain).

But for now I have to embrace where I am in my journey, there are ups and downs, this is a lifelong lifestyle change I am making and it will take time. Mistakes and setbacks happen, I believe how a person handles them and bounce back from them really define that person.

My Current Battle: Avoiding the Scale and Weighing In

My Current Battle: Avoiding the Scale and Weighing In

Tomorrow I hit the 2 week mark since I last stepped on the scale to weigh myself. I will admit this time around I have been avoiding the scale, when I see it on the bathroom floor, I make myself look away! The last time I was as serious about getting healthy, losing weight, concentrating on my fitness as I am now, I obsessively weighed myself most of the time. Sometimes multiple times a day. I would get upset seeing a slight fluctuation with the number on the scale. I know that is silly and ridiculous, but it is the truth.

This time around I have been paying more attention to the quality of my foods, making sure I get the nutrition I need to fuel my body for working out, with a handful of indulgences here and there, but nothing unreasonable. I have been really sticking to my running training and cross training. I know that I am making the healthy choices I need to make and that the excess weight I gained back and then what I had left to lose will be shed in time, and hopefully muscle mass will be gained (thinking long term).

So in a way it is silly to get on the scale, but on the other hand it is one way to measure progress. I am really curious to see what the scale says, I am ready to see the number drop down a bit to remind me that even if I can’t see it yet in the mirror I am on the right track. But I am also terrified of stepping on the scale and it not budging or being disappointed by the number the display shows.

I will most likely be weighing myself within the next couple of days, but I have to keep reminding myself that the number on the display only tells a portion of the story, that the improvement in my fitness tells a portion, the changes I have made in my daily food choices is another portion and so on.

I have to remember that the number on the scale is a helpful tool to measure my progress and to stay on track and make sure I don’t need to switch things up, but I need to remember now and in months from now that the number on the scale does not define me and may not always reflect my changes and hard work right away.