Today marked two weeks since my last weigh in, when I walked into the bathroom today the scale seemed to be all I could focus on. I will admit I was hesitant at first to step on the scale, knowing that my hard work may or may not be showing on the scale yet, that fear did not stop me, I did step onto that scale! I closed my eyes while the numbers moved a bit and settled into my actual weight being shown on the display, when I opened my eyes and looked down the number 164 was what was shining back up at me. Okay, I can handle that! That was a 3 lb weight loss over the course of 2 weeks (I was 167 last weigh in). When I started back up with my weight loss 3 weeks ago I weighed in at 169.4, so in 3 weeks time I have lost 5.4 lbs, not too bad.
I have to admit when I weigh in now no matter what the number is, I am still not quite 100% happy with myself. Knowing that I was down to 144 at the beginning of 2012 and knowing I had less than 20 lbs left to lose before I hit my goal weight and then I started regaining the weight makes it hard to completely be happy with the numbers this time around.
Don’t get me wrong, I am proud of myself, trust me I am proud of my hard work and of the choices I have been making in order to not only to lose the weight but also to get back to a fitness level I am also proud of. But I just hate that I was so far along in my journey and then I just slipped back into old habits (given a lot of things came up during that time that I have blogged about previously – I battled through a horrible bout of depression, we had some major life altering changes occur in our life, including bringing home an infant unexpectedly becoming parents over night – but I always call things like that “excuses” for weight gain).
But for now I have to embrace where I am in my journey, there are ups and downs, this is a lifelong lifestyle change I am making and it will take time. Mistakes and setbacks happen, I believe how a person handles them and bounce back from them really define that person.