Life has gotten so crazy lately. I have been battling a lot of depression and anxiety issues recently (I suffer from bipolar disorder and several anxiety disorders), which I have talked about before. I finally broke down and decided it was time to make an appointment with my psychiatrist that I have not seen in a couple of years. I think that is a step in the right direction for me.
But on top of that I have had a lot of other things going on.
My cousin suddenly died last week, he was only 29, so that hit me pretty hard. We haven’t been close in several years, but I have a lot of fond memories of time spent with him from when we were both kids. It also really hits me hard on top of just being family because he is so close to my age. His funeral is on Wednesday and I expect that to be a very hard day for my entire family.
Yesterday, my boxer Zoey suddenly couldn’t jump up. She would fall back down if she tried, like collapsing. She was arching her back. It was like she could not walk correctly, her muscles were seeming to fail. I thought she was dying. We got her in to the emergency vets office. Luckily we discovered that all of her vitals were fine and it is most likely a pinched nerve in her back. Although we have to keep an eye on her they are pretty sure that is what it is. But her symptoms mimicked several fatal conditions, so I was just a mess. I am still a little paranoid that something will turn up to be wrong, but I am trying not to be paranoid about it. Zoey is taking an anti-inflammatory medicine and a muscle relaxer for the next few days and being babied and resting. With a little luck she should be just fine.
A good friend of ours is being induced within the next couple of hours! She is having her third baby and I am excited for her and her family.
With all the issues I was already battling and adding in all the additional stress, I have just been barely making it. So my blogging has been inconsistent at best the past couple weeks. I apologize for that. My exercise has also been inconsistent at best. I really need to get back into a routine with both of those. I am hoping everything settles down and levels out in the near future, this has been a tough start to the New Year so far.